Trial and Error

I feel like my writing is a process of trial and error. And right now, it seems like everything I try is an error. Just when I think I've got a system figured out, I fail. The good news is that failing and frustration mean I'm trying new things. Growth is painful. The bad news is that I get discouraged.

Here I am again, trying to outline but feeling that outlining is a pain in the butt and not the way my brain works. On the other hand, if I could get an awesome outline figured out, I feel like my revisions would be so much easier.

Then I'm back to, "But once I know how the story ends, I don't have much interest in writing it."

Someone shoot me now.